ღAll the blurry lines are clean

Put down the magazine and get off the phone
Cuz theres a place I wanna show u and it wont take long
Take a ride
Take a ride

Its lookin like we're getting there
Over here, comin clear
Place that has no rhymes, or times, or crimes
Just good times
Just good times

Take me away
To a place where the good times good times roll
Don't let me stay
In a place where this hate can steal my soul

Got myself worked up over nothing today
All this trash is in my head I gotta throw it away
Its alright
Its alright

Its lookin like we're getting there
Over here, comin clear
Place that has no rhymes, or times, or crimes
Just good times
Just good times

Take me away
To a place where the good times good times roll
Don't let me stay
In a place where this hate can steal my soul

This is it, I'm finally here
And all the blurry lines are clear
And everything that I cant see
Seems to make more sense to me
Why the hell cant I just let it go, let it go, yeah

Take me away (away)
where the good times good times roll (roll)
Don't let me stay (stay)
where this hate can steal my soul

Let the good times roll
Let the good times roll (take me away)
Let the good times roll (take me away)
Let the good times roll

Tommy Lee - Good Times

I've been listening to that song today, not even seen others yet since I just put it on repeat. When things go wrong, that's been calming me down. Today I woke up late for school, had to hide in my closet with my back hurting as hell, have conjunctivitis on my right eye and I have to go out shopping - it's raining strong. But I'm in a peaceful, good mood.

Part of it is also because of Kezzi's post on tumblr, I really need to try that. The un-flatness of my tummy bothers me a lot, thanks to my grandfather I have problems with my weight. I hate admitting that, it makes me feel... like I can't see beauty beyond external appearance and that I'm vain and just another piece of trash, I hate worrying so bad about my weight but I can't not, he just fucking forces it on me. I may have mentioned, but he almost made me become anorexic once, and after that I went one whole year eating only rice and occasionally a vegetable.

I want to feel well with myself, I don't judge people for their bodies or anything, I hate how he affects me. I just hope I can get comfortable with myself soon, and let go of that worry, somehow. I'm sorry for this, I had to get it off my chest.

And Tommy just gets me in a good mood, he has this energy and happiness that's contagious... I'm just happy because of him and Kez, and also, koi's on already and that's awesome. As for my weight... I don't eat much sweets anymore and since I'm getting another dog, I'll have much more exercise to do soon. Also, do what Kezzi said and try eating vegetables and moderating my food without it being unhealthy... I can do that.

I have a friend that goes running every night, maybe some nights I can join him and that can help me get my legs strong as well, even if the bike already helps that a lot. I just want to be well with myself and happy, and then maybe talk to my dad about this... I can never get through to my grandfather, he just turns me away coldly or says something that hurts more. But I'm okay now.

Well, now I'll go back to just listening to Tommy and try not to let things bother me today.

ღSee you!